I can explain it, but I don't know if that will help you be less upset. There seems to be something bothering you that you haven't said directly. I don't really get perks from being Jewish in the US; it's not like being Israeli. I just am Jewish. That's all. I'm not saying that I would be harmed for leaving; I just didn't have anything official enough to cancel. And eventually I decided I didn't have to.
I can explain it, but I don't know if that will help you be less upset. There seems to be something bothering you that you haven't said directly. I don't really get perks from being Jewish in the US; it's not like being Israeli. I just am Jewish. That's all. I'm not saying that I would be harmed for leaving; I just didn't have anything official enough to cancel. And eventually I decided I didn't have to.